News From the Lab

Welcome everyone to the Saturday edition of the CKCK News @ Noon.

Our top story this hour is how bored I am. However, here are some stories that we are working on at this hour.


What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
- The Unforgiven by Metallica

This week has been a lesson in frustration with just very little going right, well not right, but certainly not spectacularily. I feel just stuck in a bit of rut, like I'm going to relive the previous two years in microcosm, and you know, I don't really like that idea at all, b/c it seems like I'm going to be reliving the negative aspects of it, and that would suck immensely.

The above quote illustrates this for me a lot of ways. One example is SNP. I practiced for it, and did what I could and I still went out and played poorly, and got lost and confused and so very, very frustrated. It doesn't matter to me that no one noticed, I noticed And then Wednesday morning to go into my Drama class and perform my scene poorly is irritating to the maximum. Of course this sort of frustration gets carried over into my friendships, which causes gaps and separation that I don't want to exist which causes more frustration...you can see where I'm going with this.

And as for what I've felt never shining through we'll get to that later is this broadcast.

*Station Break*

And I still
Can see through the mist
To the very end
There I'll face
What I fear the most
- Carry the Blessed Home by Blind Guardian

This also has been weighing on the ole gray matter as well. As I come up to the end of the section of my academic career, the end is what I fear the most. I've become very attached to this place and to the people here. I'll admit it. I'm scared to leave. The reason I've made this far has been because of you my friends. It will be tough to part with you. But unfortunately my time here at CUCA is reaching twilight and soon the night must fall. Although perhaps I should embrace what sweet dreams may lie therein. Rockstardom to the max!

*Commercials for PUMA Pest Control Products*

Summer is miles and miles away
And no one would ask me to stay
And I should contemplate this change
To ease the pain
And I should step out of the rain
Turn away
- In My Time of Need by Opeth

Oh this could apply to so much right now, it is ridiculous. Summer is miles and miles and if someone asks me to stay...then well crap I'll stay. I know it too. Hooray! Or it could apply to right now, and just turning away from the previous problems and trying to just to get on with my life as best I'm able as that's all we're really capable of doing. Although some time for contemplating the changes right now would be welcome and perhaps even necessary to ease some of the pain of life. And certainly stepping out of the rain right now could be good too.

*Commercial for the new Corvette!*


All I ever want
Is to be at your side
- Skalds & Shadows by Blind Guardian

This one is pretty self-explanatory, and also goes back to how I feel never shining though. Here, let me kick sand in your face and make fun of you! Show you how I really feel? Why should I? What's in it for me? Would you accept if I showed you anyway? Can you see through the shallowness of my actions into my core and my fears? Geez, no wonder I have people problems 3.5 days out of 7. You'd think at 21 you'd be secure enough in yourself just let how you feel dictate your actions instead of trying to mask them or becoming resentful toward them. I mean, why should we resent our own feelings? Isn't that just pure hypocrisy? Although writing this down has helped me decide that just being honest with my feelings and allowing them to dictate my actions might be a good idea. Who said blogs are good for nothing. Oh wait; uh...this concludes the CTV News @ Noon.