Wow, crap. I can't say this past little bit has been anything short of mystifying. I mean really, just mystifying. There's so much going on that I never expected, good and bad.
The good though:
Ballroom Dance Lessons. It's always nice to see that old rhythm guitar influence coming out in an arena where girls actually see the benefits of it (surprisingly most don't understand thrash metal.What is up with that? Come on ladies! Seriously! That's like sexxing rhythm to the max at 3000 miles per hour. Rattlehead!). I can waltz, swing and rumba like nobody's business (well not quite).
Marcus. Always good to see members of the old crew doing well. Apparently I'm the last member of the crew without a significant other. However, I am the one with bitchin' guitar and the sweetass car. We'll call it a draw. At any rate, always good to see a buddy and putz around and shoot the breeze for a couple hours.
Sunday Night Praise: At a 1:1 band to congregation (?) ratio things can be interesting, but it was awesome to set aside the axe and take up the vox for awhile though. *Sigh* I remember why I loved Concert Choir, Vocal Jazz, and Chalice so much.
The Riders. Into the playoffs for 5 years straight! How sweet is that? 30 more to go and we'll catch the Eskischmoes.
My last birthday present. A wicked cool Optimus Prime t-shirt from my Aunt, Uncles and cousins back in Saskatchewan. "Megatron must be stopped. No matter the cost."
Cookies. From Grandma & Grandpa. These are the life savers of every college student, and my life in particular. So good.
Steak. Particularily when cooked by Vince. Holy crap. Best meal in a long, long LONG time. Steak it tr00 m3thul!
Friends: The people, not the show. Thank God for my friends, or this would the most miserable exitance EVAR! Eric we need to rock out and come up with sweet new chapel tunes (complete with lead fill solo). We can do it!
Thank you Detroit. Goodnight, We Love You!
P.S. I will give you hand with your blogging questions Ash.
P.P.S. Blind Guardian in Motherf**king TWO WEEKS!!!!!!!!!! VALHALLA!!!!
Monday, October 30, 2006
Saturday, October 21, 2006
News From the Lab
Welcome everyone to the Saturday edition of the CKCK News @ Noon.
Our top story this hour is how bored I am. However, here are some stories that we are working on at this hour.
What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
- The Unforgiven by Metallica
This week has been a lesson in frustration with just very little going right, well not right, but certainly not spectacularily. I feel just stuck in a bit of rut, like I'm going to relive the previous two years in microcosm, and you know, I don't really like that idea at all, b/c it seems like I'm going to be reliving the negative aspects of it, and that would suck immensely.
The above quote illustrates this for me a lot of ways. One example is SNP. I practiced for it, and did what I could and I still went out and played poorly, and got lost and confused and so very, very frustrated. It doesn't matter to me that no one noticed, I noticed And then Wednesday morning to go into my Drama class and perform my scene poorly is irritating to the maximum. Of course this sort of frustration gets carried over into my friendships, which causes gaps and separation that I don't want to exist which causes more frustration...you can see where I'm going with this.
And as for what I've felt never shining through we'll get to that later is this broadcast.
*Station Break*
And I still
Can see through the mist
To the very end
There I'll face
What I fear the most
- Carry the Blessed Home by Blind Guardian
This also has been weighing on the ole gray matter as well. As I come up to the end of the section of my academic career, the end is what I fear the most. I've become very attached to this place and to the people here. I'll admit it. I'm scared to leave. The reason I've made this far has been because of you my friends. It will be tough to part with you. But unfortunately my time here at CUCA is reaching twilight and soon the night must fall. Although perhaps I should embrace what sweet dreams may lie therein. Rockstardom to the max!
*Commercials for PUMA Pest Control Products*
Summer is miles and miles away
And no one would ask me to stay
And I should contemplate this change
To ease the pain
And I should step out of the rain
Turn away
- In My Time of Need by Opeth
Oh this could apply to so much right now, it is ridiculous. Summer is miles and miles and if someone asks me to stay...then well crap I'll stay. I know it too. Hooray! Or it could apply to right now, and just turning away from the previous problems and trying to just to get on with my life as best I'm able as that's all we're really capable of doing. Although some time for contemplating the changes right now would be welcome and perhaps even necessary to ease some of the pain of life. And certainly stepping out of the rain right now could be good too.
*Commercial for the new Corvette!*
All I ever want
Is to be at your side
- Skalds & Shadows by Blind Guardian
This one is pretty self-explanatory, and also goes back to how I feel never shining though. Here, let me kick sand in your face and make fun of you! Show you how I really feel? Why should I? What's in it for me? Would you accept if I showed you anyway? Can you see through the shallowness of my actions into my core and my fears? Geez, no wonder I have people problems 3.5 days out of 7. You'd think at 21 you'd be secure enough in yourself just let how you feel dictate your actions instead of trying to mask them or becoming resentful toward them. I mean, why should we resent our own feelings? Isn't that just pure hypocrisy? Although writing this down has helped me decide that just being honest with my feelings and allowing them to dictate my actions might be a good idea. Who said blogs are good for nothing. Oh wait; uh...this concludes the CTV News @ Noon.
Our top story this hour is how bored I am. However, here are some stories that we are working on at this hour.
What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
- The Unforgiven by Metallica
This week has been a lesson in frustration with just very little going right, well not right, but certainly not spectacularily. I feel just stuck in a bit of rut, like I'm going to relive the previous two years in microcosm, and you know, I don't really like that idea at all, b/c it seems like I'm going to be reliving the negative aspects of it, and that would suck immensely.
The above quote illustrates this for me a lot of ways. One example is SNP. I practiced for it, and did what I could and I still went out and played poorly, and got lost and confused and so very, very frustrated. It doesn't matter to me that no one noticed, I noticed And then Wednesday morning to go into my Drama class and perform my scene poorly is irritating to the maximum. Of course this sort of frustration gets carried over into my friendships, which causes gaps and separation that I don't want to exist which causes more frustration...you can see where I'm going with this.
And as for what I've felt never shining through we'll get to that later is this broadcast.
*Station Break*
And I still
Can see through the mist
To the very end
There I'll face
What I fear the most
- Carry the Blessed Home by Blind Guardian
This also has been weighing on the ole gray matter as well. As I come up to the end of the section of my academic career, the end is what I fear the most. I've become very attached to this place and to the people here. I'll admit it. I'm scared to leave. The reason I've made this far has been because of you my friends. It will be tough to part with you. But unfortunately my time here at CUCA is reaching twilight and soon the night must fall. Although perhaps I should embrace what sweet dreams may lie therein. Rockstardom to the max!
*Commercials for PUMA Pest Control Products*
Summer is miles and miles away
And no one would ask me to stay
And I should contemplate this change
To ease the pain
And I should step out of the rain
Turn away
- In My Time of Need by Opeth
Oh this could apply to so much right now, it is ridiculous. Summer is miles and miles and if someone asks me to stay...then well crap I'll stay. I know it too. Hooray! Or it could apply to right now, and just turning away from the previous problems and trying to just to get on with my life as best I'm able as that's all we're really capable of doing. Although some time for contemplating the changes right now would be welcome and perhaps even necessary to ease some of the pain of life. And certainly stepping out of the rain right now could be good too.
*Commercial for the new Corvette!*
All I ever want
Is to be at your side
- Skalds & Shadows by Blind Guardian
This one is pretty self-explanatory, and also goes back to how I feel never shining though. Here, let me kick sand in your face and make fun of you! Show you how I really feel? Why should I? What's in it for me? Would you accept if I showed you anyway? Can you see through the shallowness of my actions into my core and my fears? Geez, no wonder I have people problems 3.5 days out of 7. You'd think at 21 you'd be secure enough in yourself just let how you feel dictate your actions instead of trying to mask them or becoming resentful toward them. I mean, why should we resent our own feelings? Isn't that just pure hypocrisy? Although writing this down has helped me decide that just being honest with my feelings and allowing them to dictate my actions might be a good idea. Who said blogs are good for nothing. Oh wait; uh...this concludes the CTV News @ Noon.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Reflections of my Mood on the Water...
"What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through what I've shown
Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been"
- The Unforgiven by Metallica
"Blind my eyes
And I still
Can see through the mist
To the very end
There I'll face
What I fear the most
Blind my eyes
But it all doesn't matter
Right now"
- Carry the Blessed Home by Blind Guardian
"This time there is nothing left for you to take, this is goodbye
Summer is miles and miles way
And no one would ask me to stay
And I should contemplate this change
To ease the pain
And I should step out of the rain
Turn away"
- In My Time of Need by Opeth
"Do not fear for my reason
There's nothing to hide
How bitter your treason
How bitter your lie
Remember the runes
And remember the light
All I ever want
Is to be at your side"
- Skalds & Shadows by Blind Guardian
What I've known
Never shined through what I've shown
Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been"
- The Unforgiven by Metallica
"Blind my eyes
And I still
Can see through the mist
To the very end
There I'll face
What I fear the most
Blind my eyes
But it all doesn't matter
Right now"
- Carry the Blessed Home by Blind Guardian
"This time there is nothing left for you to take, this is goodbye
Summer is miles and miles way
And no one would ask me to stay
And I should contemplate this change
To ease the pain
And I should step out of the rain
Turn away"
- In My Time of Need by Opeth
"Do not fear for my reason
There's nothing to hide
How bitter your treason
How bitter your lie
Remember the runes
And remember the light
All I ever want
Is to be at your side"
- Skalds & Shadows by Blind Guardian
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Concerning Hobbits and Being 21
So on a momentous occassion today I became 21 years of age. And this has given me pause and cause to relfect back on the previous 4 years, and to speculate about this my final year (God-willing) here at CUCA.
"Back when I was just seventeen
I thought that I knew everything
I could make it in this scene
To be a rising star that only gleamed
But all the answers disagreed
With the questions held for me"
Of Mice and Men - Megadeth
There's not much to tell about 1st year. My first love and relationship began. I turned 18 a few months before that, and the world was still large and fresh. Still a some crap went down, feelings were hurt, things were said. Shirts were taken off and a giant green 'D' was painted upon my chest in -30 degree weather. I took my first language in a long time, I took voice lessons. And I grew slowly toward the person who stands before you today.
"Outside on a winter's night as the rain begins to fall
There's a chill in the air and the howl of a wolf while the rain beats at the door
Seven kings will ride on the wind up towards the mountains high
And the only sound that will break the air is the warrior's bitter cry
Burning starfire shine in the sky
For the lives of great men who stand by your side
When the night fall on we will ride
For no lost souls will live on forever"
Starfire - Dragonforce
Second year was much more hectic and taxing on me. Dealing with mentors, and trying to breaking out from under their wing, and still trying to learn from them. Learning how to balance a job, Stats, Hebrew and a relationship taught me time management. I found a community of faith that I could belong to, and participate in.
I went to my first ever Megadeth concert and that was awesome beyond all reason. The relationship taught me things about myself both good and bad, and further galvanized my personality. And the break-up taught me even more. Babysitting my cousins was fun that summer though. As was watching anime with Joel and Nick. And making new friends in Regina (Hey Heather *waves*) was coolio to the max.
"Brace up, defend,
never ever be outdone in bravery
This is the way we want it to be
This is The Way Of The Warrior
This is the way we want it to be
Walking the way, the honest will see
Walking The Way Of The Warrior
Walking the way, The Way Of The Warrior"
The Way of the Warrior - Hammerfall
Third year was interesting to say the least. It started off with a bang though as Gowan, Joel, his friend Laura and I embarked to the first-annual Gigantour show headlined by Megadeth, oh it was sooo good and a kick ass way to start a year off. On the rebound and seeking to recover, well let's just say things didn't go so well. The old guard of friends I had at CUCA had moved on, and in a sense I was able to move out from underneath their shadow, and take some of the limelight.
New friendships and bonds were formed, and they still stand to this day. I learned even more about myself and life in general. I found what I would and would not stand for, and how I would approach and deal with people. a new knighthood was formed (Vince, where's our Constitution?, lol). My heart took a beating but it was worth it. Then the summer came, a guitar was bought, a tour guide I became. A new confidence was found and carried into the coming year.
"Some words will trigger certain acts
Belief in limitations we have learnt
Some acts will trigger certain states
I'm taking back what I gave away
Deviate from the form of nothing
Deviate from the norm to something
Deviate from the form of nothing
I deviate, farewell to the tribe"
Deviate from the Form - Scar Symmetry
And now two months into what should be my final year here, I find myself reaping some of the benefits of all the trials, all the heartaches, all the doubts. A renewed vigor burns deep within and we all know who it comes from (hint: we can't see Him). I've found my niche being on stage with my axe and rockin' hard. I have my friends, I have my niche, I have everything one could really want or ask for (minus 500 points for lack of a girlfriend, lol).I have a Blind Guardian concert to look forward to, and graduation even further on after that. I should on all accounts be some kind of awesome.
"Look around and see
The world is turning fast
Faster day by day
Somewhere far beyond
I'll try to change it If I can
Somewhere far beyond
There's only one chance
And it lies
Somewhere far beyond
Somewhere far beyond
The march of time it has begun..."
Somewhere Far Beyond - Blind Guardian
"Back when I was just seventeen
I thought that I knew everything
I could make it in this scene
To be a rising star that only gleamed
But all the answers disagreed
With the questions held for me"
Of Mice and Men - Megadeth
There's not much to tell about 1st year. My first love and relationship began. I turned 18 a few months before that, and the world was still large and fresh. Still a some crap went down, feelings were hurt, things were said. Shirts were taken off and a giant green 'D' was painted upon my chest in -30 degree weather. I took my first language in a long time, I took voice lessons. And I grew slowly toward the person who stands before you today.
"Outside on a winter's night as the rain begins to fall
There's a chill in the air and the howl of a wolf while the rain beats at the door
Seven kings will ride on the wind up towards the mountains high
And the only sound that will break the air is the warrior's bitter cry
Burning starfire shine in the sky
For the lives of great men who stand by your side
When the night fall on we will ride
For no lost souls will live on forever"
Starfire - Dragonforce
Second year was much more hectic and taxing on me. Dealing with mentors, and trying to breaking out from under their wing, and still trying to learn from them. Learning how to balance a job, Stats, Hebrew and a relationship taught me time management. I found a community of faith that I could belong to, and participate in.
I went to my first ever Megadeth concert and that was awesome beyond all reason. The relationship taught me things about myself both good and bad, and further galvanized my personality. And the break-up taught me even more. Babysitting my cousins was fun that summer though. As was watching anime with Joel and Nick. And making new friends in Regina (Hey Heather *waves*) was coolio to the max.
"Brace up, defend,
never ever be outdone in bravery
This is the way we want it to be
This is The Way Of The Warrior
This is the way we want it to be
Walking the way, the honest will see
Walking The Way Of The Warrior
Walking the way, The Way Of The Warrior"
The Way of the Warrior - Hammerfall
Third year was interesting to say the least. It started off with a bang though as Gowan, Joel, his friend Laura and I embarked to the first-annual Gigantour show headlined by Megadeth, oh it was sooo good and a kick ass way to start a year off. On the rebound and seeking to recover, well let's just say things didn't go so well. The old guard of friends I had at CUCA had moved on, and in a sense I was able to move out from underneath their shadow, and take some of the limelight.
New friendships and bonds were formed, and they still stand to this day. I learned even more about myself and life in general. I found what I would and would not stand for, and how I would approach and deal with people. a new knighthood was formed (Vince, where's our Constitution?, lol). My heart took a beating but it was worth it. Then the summer came, a guitar was bought, a tour guide I became. A new confidence was found and carried into the coming year.
"Some words will trigger certain acts
Belief in limitations we have learnt
Some acts will trigger certain states
I'm taking back what I gave away
Deviate from the form of nothing
Deviate from the norm to something
Deviate from the form of nothing
I deviate, farewell to the tribe"
Deviate from the Form - Scar Symmetry
And now two months into what should be my final year here, I find myself reaping some of the benefits of all the trials, all the heartaches, all the doubts. A renewed vigor burns deep within and we all know who it comes from (hint: we can't see Him). I've found my niche being on stage with my axe and rockin' hard. I have my friends, I have my niche, I have everything one could really want or ask for (minus 500 points for lack of a girlfriend, lol).I have a Blind Guardian concert to look forward to, and graduation even further on after that. I should on all accounts be some kind of awesome.
"Look around and see
The world is turning fast
Faster day by day
Somewhere far beyond
I'll try to change it If I can
Somewhere far beyond
There's only one chance
And it lies
Somewhere far beyond
Somewhere far beyond
The march of time it has begun..."
Somewhere Far Beyond - Blind Guardian
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