Simply put, why is it that the things that we place value on and the things that attempt to obtain are always beyond our grasp. I don't understand the lesson that's being taught to me, what am I supposed to be learning here? I try and I change and still I fail. This makes no sense to me. If I knew what I had to protect or what I was fighting for then maybe I could sense my purpose, and obtain some direction. I heard a saying that the only prayers that are answered are the ones that are driven from a soul-felt need to help someone else. Then what use have I for a desire for myself?
I wish that I was free to operate as I saw fit, without having to worry about my actions and intentions being judged and evaluated by others. Without knowing a persons heart then how can you possibly know what is driving their actions? Aren't actions to be judged by what need is driving them as opposed to what is simply seen, because what is simply seen is open to interepretation.
We all stand on the stage of history, and have our own roles to play. For some this act of the play is merely the beginning, yet for others such as myself we can see the curtains drawing close on this act so that the set and the actors can be re-arranged for the next act. However, even if the curtains are to close on this scene there is still much to happen before that time. The actors for this scene have all been assembled and cast, and the curtain has already been pulled back, andall that we are left with is each other and this temporary stage, and the lines that should be born of pure, and genuine heartfelt expression. For some this act will allow their souls to shine forth as a light to the world that is sorely lacking in compassion and kindness. Still others will discover their inner darkness, and show that to the world. Some will be crushed by the weight of what they feel from those around them.
Make no mistake, many things will change within this act as it unfolds. Discoveries about self will be made, debacles will occur, and yet love may flourish like a rose from amongst a world of ash. And where will I fit within this scene? Unfortunately, that has yet to be seen.
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No matterr who you are, or what you do people are always going to judge and evaluate you . . . so i learning to just not care what others say. Sure there are some people whos opinions should matter do you . . but the rest of the world- screw them!
Trying not to care can be tough, especially when some people are given the power to hurt you b/c their opinions matter to you. It's all part of the 'if' of 'life'.
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