[rant]
As a M.Div student I spend a good portion of my day thinking. I think about the consequences of certain points of theological systematics. My assignments revolve around the uses of certain Greek and Hebrew words, and the implications of verb tenses and adjectival modifiers. Therefore when it is time to relax, it is time to do just that. Where do I turn for some good time just to hang out by myself, either 1st thing in the morning or before going to bed? To movies and anime. Why? Because my creative juices are usually spent by the end of the day, and I don't want to disturb my landlord at 7am with electric guitar. If I want something purposefully deep and compelling I'll turn to a novel, but usually I opt for action/something that only takes 22-25 minutes of my time in a go. Giant animated Mecha have been my downtime of choice this year.
I'll admit it, I liked Gundam Wing (didn't like Gundam SEED). A lot. Why? because it was fun, and my first introduction to anime. The characters were emotionally engaging (I was 15 when it came out so I drew a lot of parallels with most of the characters). I liked the ambiguity between good and bad that was portrayed in the show, I thought the story was compelling. And besides, you have David Kaye and Brian Drummond handling the vocal duties for Treize and Zechs and I was hooked (just look up their lists of characters on imdb.com or animenewsnetwork.com, and its very impressive). I finished re-watching it this year, and dang, it was good times.
Favorite Character: Zechs Marquise/Milliardo Peacecraft
The Transformers movie was fun. Not perfect, but certainly not as ridiculous as it could have been (especially when one considers the episodes Kremzeek, and Carnage in C Minor *shudder*). The designs were definitely new for the series as whole, but a needed breath of fresh air. Yet it gets a lot of hate, apparently. I still say it stands above some of the G1 cartoons, and that it is still better than the 1st 4-issues of the Marvel run, which had approximately the same story ideas. Definitely was not as good as Transformers: Masterforce, which in terms of coherent storytelling, next to G1 Seasons 1 - 4, is a masterpiece with compelling villains, and cool heroes, and a lot of concepts which are very cool, and well executed (Pretenders,and Godmasters specifically). It was fun though, and had really awesome effects. Can't wait for #2 in 2009
Surprise find of the week goes to Dancouga: Nova, a short little 12 episode series. Very nifty, and well animated, although a little more sexualized than I'm used to. (Most of the Gundam series that I've seen [Wing, bits of SEED, 08th MS Team, 0083] are pretty well devoid of of anything even remotely sexual). At any rate it was a fun diversion, that didn't take itself too seriously at all.
Major Disappointment: The last two-three episodes of Transformers: Animated. Really, really boring, and not much fun. If people thought the new movie lacked Decepticon action, they definitely have not seen Animated. Although, it does have David Kaye playing Prime, which is cool, but I'm losing interest in it very rapidly.
Question of the Week: Why is it not possible, now in 2008, to get a new Transformers cartoon/anime that is properly animated, with fluid motion and wicked designs? (See the OP for Gundam 00 on youtube.com for what I'm talking about). The openings I've seen on youtube for Beast Wars II and Beast Wars Neo suggest it is possible. So come on, after Animated lets see Transformers done up right for the new century.
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Saturday, March 22, 2008
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Sunday, July 22, 2007
Transformers: The Movie
I can't lie. I saw the movie three times in theatres. That's a first since Star Wars: Episode I: The Phantom Menace. So what's one to do when their childhood comes raging on the big screen with the force of a runaway Kenworth truck? Strap in an enjoy the Ride!
The Story: This is not great cinema that's for sure, but it is Transformers to the core: Nerdy kid, Heroic Autobots, Evil Decepticons, interfering humans, and one object that can create and destroy worlds. Yea, this the Transformers, for sure. Filled with just the right amount of cheese to be an homage to the series that started it all. Honestly , if you were there for the story, you need to wait until the sequels once we have time, and enough money to render that kind of in-depth Transformer history (here I'm referring to ridiculous 38 hours per FRAME of rendering that ILM had to do). I'm willing to wait for a more in-depth story. This was an excellent intro movie.
The Characters: The Autobots remained true to the heritage of their characters, although Bumblebee's speaking voice didn't seem to fit. The Con's though, well they were there, with Barricade and Megatron getting the most screen time, but certainly stand to more fleshed out, along with the human characters. Still they crammed a lot into a 2.5 hour movie, although that was mostly plot.
The Action: Hold onto your transistors, and don't blink a diode or you'll miss it. Still when you have characters having nearly 10, 000 moving parts each that's sheer technological grunt working for you. And the Bumblebee on the tow-truck fire-fight was inventive and worked well. The Prime vs Megatron fight was tough to sort out, needed to pull back a little (although with repeated viewing it becomes more clear).
The Graphics: One word: Intense. Congrats to Industrial Light & Magic for one-upping themselves on this one. Like my friend Nick said, if you didn't know giant robots didn't exist it'd be hard to argue against it from the looks of this movie. 10 000 moving parts, 38 hours of rendering paid off in a big way, even the Transformations are sweet, and jaw dropping to look at. Even though I hated the designs at first blush, this movie, and the way they move justify the designs.
The Verdict: Go check it out. It's great summer movie, with hilarity, action, Old School Heroes and Villains, and JAW-DROPPINg GRAPHICS!
The Story: This is not great cinema that's for sure, but it is Transformers to the core: Nerdy kid, Heroic Autobots, Evil Decepticons, interfering humans, and one object that can create and destroy worlds. Yea, this the Transformers, for sure. Filled with just the right amount of cheese to be an homage to the series that started it all. Honestly , if you were there for the story, you need to wait until the sequels once we have time, and enough money to render that kind of in-depth Transformer history (here I'm referring to ridiculous 38 hours per FRAME of rendering that ILM had to do). I'm willing to wait for a more in-depth story. This was an excellent intro movie.
The Characters: The Autobots remained true to the heritage of their characters, although Bumblebee's speaking voice didn't seem to fit. The Con's though, well they were there, with Barricade and Megatron getting the most screen time, but certainly stand to more fleshed out, along with the human characters. Still they crammed a lot into a 2.5 hour movie, although that was mostly plot.
The Action: Hold onto your transistors, and don't blink a diode or you'll miss it. Still when you have characters having nearly 10, 000 moving parts each that's sheer technological grunt working for you. And the Bumblebee on the tow-truck fire-fight was inventive and worked well. The Prime vs Megatron fight was tough to sort out, needed to pull back a little (although with repeated viewing it becomes more clear).
The Graphics: One word: Intense. Congrats to Industrial Light & Magic for one-upping themselves on this one. Like my friend Nick said, if you didn't know giant robots didn't exist it'd be hard to argue against it from the looks of this movie. 10 000 moving parts, 38 hours of rendering paid off in a big way, even the Transformations are sweet, and jaw dropping to look at. Even though I hated the designs at first blush, this movie, and the way they move justify the designs.
The Verdict: Go check it out. It's great summer movie, with hilarity, action, Old School Heroes and Villains, and JAW-DROPPINg GRAPHICS!
Monday, March 26, 2007
Songwriter's Competiton Pics
Thanks to my friend Linda for taking and posting these pics on her Facebook.
It was a fun night playing two of my own songs, one called Wild at Heart and the other called Revelation. i have video too, but I'm having abear of a time getting it compressed so I can email it out to all you guys. So if you have any sweet ideas on how to do that let me know. There's a few more pics that I have on my comp, and Tammy will have some more too, but this should be enough to satiate all of you: my ravenous fans
This is me playing and smiling, which is a rarity.
Me rocking out hard
"The Third Rule of Thrash metal
is that you have to sing a song
about the book of Revelation
from the Bible" - Me
Me doing my best Dave Mustaine impression
is that you have to sing a song
about the book of Revelation
from the Bible" - Me
Me doing my best Dave Mustaine impression
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Megadeth: March 13 2007
Hey All!
So I went to see Megadeth last night for the 3rd time at Rexall Place, who were opening for Heaven & Hell (i.e. Black Sabbath w/ Ronnie James Dio as front man). There was a fairly good sized crowd waiting outside, including two drunks who were there to see Down. Then Down cancelled b/c of illness so they were now drunk and pissed, and eventually left. Trash-talking Megadeth and Sabbath is a terrible idea, by the way.
So we (Tammy, my friend Quinn and his friend Geoff) got in around 6:15ish and proceeded to the merch table to procure swaggage. I was a little choked that they didn't have any Megadeth women's-wear for Tammy. So we got our gear, and went to our seats and proceeded to wait until 7:30ish for Megadeth to come on. The United Abominations backdrop was sweet to the max, and covered over thier amps. And then lights out.
And the intro part of Sleepwalker comes on, and then the riff and drums explode into existance and we could see the band rocking out hard. You could tell from the get-go that Dave was driven, and ready to kick all our heads in with his music. He was all over that stage, and was playing his guitar more recklessly than I'd ever seen him play before. They blasted through tthe first four songs : Sleepwalker, Wake Up Dead, Kick The Chair and In My Darkest Hour before taking a break to address the crowd. Dave's new Dean guitar looked sweet from back where I was.
Then they launched into Washington Is Next, which was sweet, and one of the songs that I really looked forward to hearing. Then they headed into Trust and I got to watch Tammy headbang for the first time. She was so into it! It was really cool to go and experince such a high point with her and see her enjoy it as much as I did. And then they play A Tout Le Monde, one of Tammy's favourite songs, which we both enjoyed immensely.
Out of nowhere they started the Hangar 18 riff, which caught me off-guard b/c they hadn't played it in Vancouver, but it was awesome. Glen shredded those solos, I've really enjoyed watching him get better and better and gain confidence in the band. I can't wait to hear his work on the new album (May 15th if you're wondering). Then they blasted through Symphony of Destruction, Peace Sells, and came out for the encore Holy Wars. Also I had time to scream at Dave that we loved him after the encore. Acorrding to Quinn I crossed a line. I don't see how. He has/d a man-crush on Dio.
They played so well and had the crowd just right fired up for Sabbath. I won't say too much about Sabbath b/c I didn't enjoy them all that much, but I was beat after Deth so that may have had something to do with it.
The Bottom Line: This band rules. This line-up rules. Go see them when they come through your city b/c they are on FIRE right now!
So I went to see Megadeth last night for the 3rd time at Rexall Place, who were opening for Heaven & Hell (i.e. Black Sabbath w/ Ronnie James Dio as front man). There was a fairly good sized crowd waiting outside, including two drunks who were there to see Down. Then Down cancelled b/c of illness so they were now drunk and pissed, and eventually left. Trash-talking Megadeth and Sabbath is a terrible idea, by the way.
So we (Tammy, my friend Quinn and his friend Geoff) got in around 6:15ish and proceeded to the merch table to procure swaggage. I was a little choked that they didn't have any Megadeth women's-wear for Tammy. So we got our gear, and went to our seats and proceeded to wait until 7:30ish for Megadeth to come on. The United Abominations backdrop was sweet to the max, and covered over thier amps. And then lights out.
And the intro part of Sleepwalker comes on, and then the riff and drums explode into existance and we could see the band rocking out hard. You could tell from the get-go that Dave was driven, and ready to kick all our heads in with his music. He was all over that stage, and was playing his guitar more recklessly than I'd ever seen him play before. They blasted through tthe first four songs : Sleepwalker, Wake Up Dead, Kick The Chair and In My Darkest Hour before taking a break to address the crowd. Dave's new Dean guitar looked sweet from back where I was.
Then they launched into Washington Is Next, which was sweet, and one of the songs that I really looked forward to hearing. Then they headed into Trust and I got to watch Tammy headbang for the first time. She was so into it! It was really cool to go and experince such a high point with her and see her enjoy it as much as I did. And then they play A Tout Le Monde, one of Tammy's favourite songs, which we both enjoyed immensely.
Out of nowhere they started the Hangar 18 riff, which caught me off-guard b/c they hadn't played it in Vancouver, but it was awesome. Glen shredded those solos, I've really enjoyed watching him get better and better and gain confidence in the band. I can't wait to hear his work on the new album (May 15th if you're wondering). Then they blasted through Symphony of Destruction, Peace Sells, and came out for the encore Holy Wars. Also I had time to scream at Dave that we loved him after the encore. Acorrding to Quinn I crossed a line. I don't see how. He has/d a man-crush on Dio.
They played so well and had the crowd just right fired up for Sabbath. I won't say too much about Sabbath b/c I didn't enjoy them all that much, but I was beat after Deth so that may have had something to do with it.
The Bottom Line: This band rules. This line-up rules. Go see them when they come through your city b/c they are on FIRE right now!
Thursday, March 08, 2007
The Winds of Change
Out of the ashes of my youth
I rise a man
~ Out of the Ashes by Symphony X
Two months to go. The changes I knew were coming are finally here. I'm not single anymore, and my path of next year is clear now. For the first time ever I am being asked to be man, and I feel like I can handle it. My faith has grown this year like I had never known it would.
Where there once was weakness there is strength to be had, to be made, to be re-awakened. Am I scared? Of course. But there's a difference this time. I'm not alone, and I know it. The future that I have laying itself before me is huge. It's much bigger than I had envisioned. But I am much bigger and stronger than ever, and I will grow into this future. I cannot take all of its joy or sorrow yet. I am not ready for it. But I am ready to journey along it, growing as I go.
The flag I once planted as a king I abandoned
And now I reclaim this banner by God, my sword and my name
In a truce sealed by blood within this metal skin and all that I own
Blood, bone, and courage in my veins and the heart that pumps it
Drink from the chalice and be reborn
And the land with me, it will change and transform
~ My Kingdom by Megadeth
Everytime I talk with the men that will be going into seminary with me or after me, I can feel the winds of change blowing. Something big is coming. Something good will be shaped by those of us who dare to take up this office. We are the the crashing wave. You can tell that we are a new breed of leaders and servants. As long as we give the glory where it belongs our paths will be blessed. Not to say it willl be easy, but it will be blessed. Rise up men. Our training awaits.
And to those women that will stand by our sides. Always know that you are appreciated, and loved. We come to offer you our strength. And believe me, I'm glad that you will be travelling along with me.
I heard the voice of redemption
For me there is no exemption
I started praying
~I'll Be There by Megadeth
I rise a man
~ Out of the Ashes by Symphony X
Two months to go. The changes I knew were coming are finally here. I'm not single anymore, and my path of next year is clear now. For the first time ever I am being asked to be man, and I feel like I can handle it. My faith has grown this year like I had never known it would.
Where there once was weakness there is strength to be had, to be made, to be re-awakened. Am I scared? Of course. But there's a difference this time. I'm not alone, and I know it. The future that I have laying itself before me is huge. It's much bigger than I had envisioned. But I am much bigger and stronger than ever, and I will grow into this future. I cannot take all of its joy or sorrow yet. I am not ready for it. But I am ready to journey along it, growing as I go.
The flag I once planted as a king I abandoned
And now I reclaim this banner by God, my sword and my name
In a truce sealed by blood within this metal skin and all that I own
Blood, bone, and courage in my veins and the heart that pumps it
Drink from the chalice and be reborn
And the land with me, it will change and transform
~ My Kingdom by Megadeth
Everytime I talk with the men that will be going into seminary with me or after me, I can feel the winds of change blowing. Something big is coming. Something good will be shaped by those of us who dare to take up this office. We are the the crashing wave. You can tell that we are a new breed of leaders and servants. As long as we give the glory where it belongs our paths will be blessed. Not to say it willl be easy, but it will be blessed. Rise up men. Our training awaits.
And to those women that will stand by our sides. Always know that you are appreciated, and loved. We come to offer you our strength. And believe me, I'm glad that you will be travelling along with me.
I heard the voice of redemption
For me there is no exemption
I started praying
~I'll Be There by Megadeth
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Spark of the Forge III
1. Tammy's birthday is this coming weekend. Yikes! Oh well, now she'll be an old-timer like me. Time to start planning retirement lol. :p
2. Also next weekend is Spring Formal (the 1st Annual, no less.) Therefore that means I will have to keep my flowing locks under some semblance of control. Any maybe wear deoderant. Maybe.
3. Filling out my seminary application form, which is all kinds of crazy. 50 months from now I'll be getting my M.Div and heading off (God-willing of course) to Destination Unknown. 26 months from now I'll be getting my envelope for vicarage.
4. 2 months from now I'll be getting my BA.
5. 9 days from now...MEGADETH...MEGADETH...WITH TAMMY!!! I'm so stoked to hear them live again. I haven't been to a concert in months (Blind Guardian on Nov) and it's time to unleash again. They haven't ever disappointed me live, and I'm sure this time will be no different. In fact I'd better get earplugs before I forget.
6. I quite enjoy my new Children of Bodom DVD. Alexi is one crazy dude that's for sure.
7. I recently finished reading The Way of the Wild Heart by John Eldredge. It's a good book, and there's a couple chapters I'm going to re-read right away here.
2. Also next weekend is Spring Formal (the 1st Annual, no less.) Therefore that means I will have to keep my flowing locks under some semblance of control. Any maybe wear deoderant. Maybe.
3. Filling out my seminary application form, which is all kinds of crazy. 50 months from now I'll be getting my M.Div and heading off (God-willing of course) to Destination Unknown. 26 months from now I'll be getting my envelope for vicarage.
4. 2 months from now I'll be getting my BA.
5. 9 days from now...MEGADETH...MEGADETH...WITH TAMMY!!! I'm so stoked to hear them live again. I haven't been to a concert in months (Blind Guardian on Nov) and it's time to unleash again. They haven't ever disappointed me live, and I'm sure this time will be no different. In fact I'd better get earplugs before I forget.
6. I quite enjoy my new Children of Bodom DVD. Alexi is one crazy dude that's for sure.
7. I recently finished reading The Way of the Wild Heart by John Eldredge. It's a good book, and there's a couple chapters I'm going to re-read right away here.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Isolation: Wednesday 21
The Log for Wendesday 21 2007 follows
Things keep getting stranger around here. Steve has become merely a whisper. I can no longer detect Gilbert's presence...this concerns me greatly. As for Eric..I hear his meaningless ramblings in the hall. I hope some supplies come in soon, as mine are growing thin. I can't eat my guitar...basswood is hard on my stomach to say the least.
I got another note from Tammy today. She's resourceful to say the least. They're keeping my spirits from totally plummetting.
As well my MegaFanClub membership paid off. Sleepwalker!
I only hope that eric, steve and I all make it through this week with our sanity intact.
For the lies of the fiends see
http://thestatutesofsteve.blogspot.com
and
http://muffinsrsweet.blogspot.com
Rodimus Out.
9:41 PM
Things keep getting stranger around here. Steve has become merely a whisper. I can no longer detect Gilbert's presence...this concerns me greatly. As for Eric..I hear his meaningless ramblings in the hall. I hope some supplies come in soon, as mine are growing thin. I can't eat my guitar...basswood is hard on my stomach to say the least.
I got another note from Tammy today. She's resourceful to say the least. They're keeping my spirits from totally plummetting.
As well my MegaFanClub membership paid off. Sleepwalker!
I only hope that eric, steve and I all make it through this week with our sanity intact.
For the lies of the fiends see
http://thestatutesofsteve.blogspot.com
and
http://muffinsrsweet.blogspot.com
Rodimus Out.
9:41 PM
Monday, February 19, 2007
Isolation: Monday 19
Here follows the log of Rodimus. Monday 19
i've heard rumours of a new high school student. Gilbert or something like that. He's kind of a creep. I can sense his presence in the room below me. It's like a thousand scorpions coleasced together in dissonance. I think he was peering in my window last night. Thank goodness for the bars of the windows. Heaven forbid i decide to try to escape from a fire or something like that. Ive been brooding
The tension continues to rise in dorm. So far my absence from daily life has been ignored...as near as i can figure. I wish Tammy was around, or at least could make contact. The notes however buoy my spirits making this isolation more bearable. For right now through I have to rely on myself. Even now though I feel my sanity begin to crack. Meditation will be required.
Eric and Steve have been quiet lately. The ride to church was near silent. Only the howls of my music breaking through the icy silence. This silence is doing me well. Quelling my spirits and returning to a glass-like lake of serenity.
For more lies and propoganda see
http://muffinsrsweet.blogspot.com
and
http://thestatutesofsteve.blogspot.com
Rodimus Out.
i've heard rumours of a new high school student. Gilbert or something like that. He's kind of a creep. I can sense his presence in the room below me. It's like a thousand scorpions coleasced together in dissonance. I think he was peering in my window last night. Thank goodness for the bars of the windows. Heaven forbid i decide to try to escape from a fire or something like that. Ive been brooding
The tension continues to rise in dorm. So far my absence from daily life has been ignored...as near as i can figure. I wish Tammy was around, or at least could make contact. The notes however buoy my spirits making this isolation more bearable. For right now through I have to rely on myself. Even now though I feel my sanity begin to crack. Meditation will be required.
Eric and Steve have been quiet lately. The ride to church was near silent. Only the howls of my music breaking through the icy silence. This silence is doing me well. Quelling my spirits and returning to a glass-like lake of serenity.
For more lies and propoganda see
http://muffinsrsweet.blogspot.com
and
http://thestatutesofsteve.blogspot.com
Rodimus Out.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Reading Week: Isolation: Sunday 18
This is the log of Rodimus. Sunday February 17. 2007.
A tension pervades the hallways. I have barricaded myself in. All I hear in the halls are the screams of men, women and children. But it's only Eric & Steve. I don't know how they are pulling off the screams of the damned...I don't particularily want to know. They argue about pop-tarts and Jazzercize. Their screams are soul-rending. Chocolate S'more is also the best flavour of Pop-Tarts.
My girlfriend is preparing to sortie out to an isolated BC community tomorrow. My prayers go with her. By some supernatural means she has been able to send me a note on each of the days since her departure. It's been two days since she's been gone. So far I've been able to keep it together. Hearing her voice on the phone last night was the boost I needed to keep me going.
It may be time to upgrade the defenses of my sanctuary. If the fighting between Steve and Eric were to escalate it may even infect the university floor. I will be ever vigilant. And by ever vigilant I mean asleep. I wonder what sort of defenses I can fashion out of the pens, paper, electronics and few missile launchers.
Although it may not be the defenses of my room that need preparation. It could be the defenses of my mind and sanity...
For the lies and propganda of my...friends? see
http://thestatutesofsteve.blogspot.com
and
http://muffinsrsweet.blogspot.com
Rodimus Out.
6:38PM
A tension pervades the hallways. I have barricaded myself in. All I hear in the halls are the screams of men, women and children. But it's only Eric & Steve. I don't know how they are pulling off the screams of the damned...I don't particularily want to know. They argue about pop-tarts and Jazzercize. Their screams are soul-rending. Chocolate S'more is also the best flavour of Pop-Tarts.
My girlfriend is preparing to sortie out to an isolated BC community tomorrow. My prayers go with her. By some supernatural means she has been able to send me a note on each of the days since her departure. It's been two days since she's been gone. So far I've been able to keep it together. Hearing her voice on the phone last night was the boost I needed to keep me going.
It may be time to upgrade the defenses of my sanctuary. If the fighting between Steve and Eric were to escalate it may even infect the university floor. I will be ever vigilant. And by ever vigilant I mean asleep. I wonder what sort of defenses I can fashion out of the pens, paper, electronics and few missile launchers.
Although it may not be the defenses of my room that need preparation. It could be the defenses of my mind and sanity...
For the lies and propganda of my...friends? see
http://thestatutesofsteve.blogspot.com
and
http://muffinsrsweet.blogspot.com
Rodimus Out.
6:38PM
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Spark of the Forge IV
1. Conquesting is fun. Especially if your Cosby. If you're Rodimus you find it fun as long as you use a pistol.
2. So I have managed to squeeze 300 songs on to my iPod Nano with approx 3oo MB to spare. I have the feeling I'm not going to make 400 songs. Well not if i keep adding Opeth, Dream Theater and Symphony X.
3. All good things come to those who wait. As long as you're waiting proactively.
4. MEGADETH! MEGADETH! Going with Tammy promises to be a lot of fun.
5. Across the seas through sands of time
Knight of the Templar
A charging steed through lands unkind
A Legend Forever
A heart of gold pumps within his metal skin
A noble line he carries on
~ The Accolade by Symphony X
6. Exams start up this week. Lame.
7. So I saw another guitar I want to at least try out. It was a Jackson Randy Rhoads (I forgot to memorize the model) but it was on sale for 799, regular 1300ish. i figured it was better to walk away b/c if I had played it, it was probably coming home with me.
8. I'm quite enjoying my creative writing class. It's cool. Well the room is warm...but ah you get the idea.
9. i should probably be studying.
10. I'll Be There for you, when you walk through the fire
I'll be there for you, when the flames get higher
When nothing fits and nothing seems right
Til the very last breath of my life
I'll be there for you, I'll be there
~ I'll Be There - Megadeth
2. So I have managed to squeeze 300 songs on to my iPod Nano with approx 3oo MB to spare. I have the feeling I'm not going to make 400 songs. Well not if i keep adding Opeth, Dream Theater and Symphony X.
3. All good things come to those who wait. As long as you're waiting proactively.
4. MEGADETH! MEGADETH! Going with Tammy promises to be a lot of fun.
5. Across the seas through sands of time
Knight of the Templar
A charging steed through lands unkind
A Legend Forever
A heart of gold pumps within his metal skin
A noble line he carries on
~ The Accolade by Symphony X
6. Exams start up this week. Lame.
7. So I saw another guitar I want to at least try out. It was a Jackson Randy Rhoads (I forgot to memorize the model) but it was on sale for 799, regular 1300ish. i figured it was better to walk away b/c if I had played it, it was probably coming home with me.
8. I'm quite enjoying my creative writing class. It's cool. Well the room is warm...but ah you get the idea.
9. i should probably be studying.
10. I'll Be There for you, when you walk through the fire
I'll be there for you, when the flames get higher
When nothing fits and nothing seems right
Til the very last breath of my life
I'll be there for you, I'll be there
~ I'll Be There - Megadeth
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Random 6
So Lauren Tagged me. Now i get to post 6 random facts about myself. Wewt!
1. I've broken some many guitar strings I don't even swear when it happnes anymore.
2. I was once a Drama minor
3. I'm two religion courses short of a double major.
4. My favourite line from the Transformers TV show is Soundwave's "All talk, no shock" quote.
5. I own 20 Megadeth CDs.
6. My girlfriend has more band t-shirts than me. :-(
I tag..the world! Perry!
1. I've broken some many guitar strings I don't even swear when it happnes anymore.
2. I was once a Drama minor
3. I'm two religion courses short of a double major.
4. My favourite line from the Transformers TV show is Soundwave's "All talk, no shock" quote.
5. I own 20 Megadeth CDs.
6. My girlfriend has more band t-shirts than me. :-(
I tag..the world! Perry!
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Wewt!
Wewt!
So yea. Guess who's not single anymore? That's right! Me! Yea, it's basically awesome. And so is Tammy. It's great, stupendous, and whole bunch of other positive adjectives I can't think of right now! I can say this though. The wait was worth it. Very much so. Yea... *contented sigh and a silly smile* Words fail me at this point. So adios! Thanks to everyone who's been supporting us!
"I think I've got myself in deep
With an angel from above"
~ The One by Annihilator
So yea. Guess who's not single anymore? That's right! Me! Yea, it's basically awesome. And so is Tammy. It's great, stupendous, and whole bunch of other positive adjectives I can't think of right now! I can say this though. The wait was worth it. Very much so. Yea... *contented sigh and a silly smile* Words fail me at this point. So adios! Thanks to everyone who's been supporting us!
"I think I've got myself in deep
With an angel from above"
~ The One by Annihilator
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
A Long Time Ago...
"Intelligence has a report for you, sir."
The captain looked over from the bridge of the Star Destroyer to the young comm officer. "Well, what have they got for us?"
"Nothing really sir. Minor variations, but nothing drastic, and nothing certain, if that's what you're asking sir."
Indeed, that was what he was asking. It's all he ever seemed to ask for, but so rarely what he got. "Keep our sensors turned outward, and see what we can get. Engine variations hyperdrives coming online, combat manuvers, weapons banks warming up, anything."
"Yes, sir"
Four years. It had been four years since he had come on board the Relentless. He'd started out as minor fleet officer, but through his ingenuity and dogged determination he had been given command of the Relentless in his 3rd year aboard, and had gone about filling out his crew with the best men and women he could find. Some he had known from the academy, and others were new recruits from all manner and walks of life. He was proud of them, so it saddened him to know that although his next promotion would move him on to supposedly bigger and better things he would have to leave the majority of them behind. It was a big galaxy after all, and there was much he could accomplish elsewhere. Still...
"Sir?" The question snapped the captain out of his reverie.
"Yes?"
"What are we going to do about that?"
That happened to be an Imperial Star Destroyer that had jumped in system not all that long ago, with a captain that seemed to be similar to himself. Communications seemed to confirm this. And that the two captains and ships were similar, but far from being identical. It was clear though that the Relentless ran a much smaller crew, than this new one did, and that the Relentless did not have the same level of scanning technology either. And that fact was giving the captain fits. To his credit he made good use of what was available to him, but that he was still at the overall disadvantage. However it did seem that the Relentless had a better shielding system around it's core, but even that was uncertain. However, it was clear from the scarring on the hull of the Relentless that it had seen considerably darker times, but maybe that was simply because the captain was too proud to hide his wounds.
"Leave it be for now. Continue plotting a course to take us to any of our potential destinations. It doesn't seem to want to do us any harm, or particularily stand in our way, although it does seem to at least want to exert some influence."
"Aye, sir. What if their captain decides to..."
"To do what? Communications about our destinations haven't given us anything to work with. They're not going to simply blow us out of space for trying to run our course. They'll talk long before they'll fight about it. We're on the same side above all else."
"How do you kn--?" Then the ensign's eyes widened with sudden understanding "Captain, you want to fight alongside her don't you?"
The captain sighed. Yes, that was indeed the truth of the matter. The technical readouts of the Destroyers and profiles that he availabe about the personnel of each ship seemed to indicate that in combination that the Destroyers would form a verypowerful team. A lot was still uncertain, but it was the crux of the matter. They did know that while both ships flew under the colours of the Empire, that they were in different branches. Ultimately though, they served the same Emperor. Unfortunately with the Relentless due Coreward in the next four months, there was precious little time to explore the possibilites. Why float away from something so rare in the galaxy?
"Yes, ensign. I would like to very much," he said wistfully. Then his voice took on an edge, "Continue setting those courses, and ensure that everything is in readiness. Make sure all the systems pass their checks so that we can launch into hyperspace on schedule. This jump has been put off long enough."
"But, sir, I don't --"
"And, ensign, if anything occurs that changes my mind, we'll deal with it as it comes, and not before. Understood?"
"Aye, sir."
The captain looked over from the bridge of the Star Destroyer to the young comm officer. "Well, what have they got for us?"
"Nothing really sir. Minor variations, but nothing drastic, and nothing certain, if that's what you're asking sir."
Indeed, that was what he was asking. It's all he ever seemed to ask for, but so rarely what he got. "Keep our sensors turned outward, and see what we can get. Engine variations hyperdrives coming online, combat manuvers, weapons banks warming up, anything."
"Yes, sir"
Four years. It had been four years since he had come on board the Relentless. He'd started out as minor fleet officer, but through his ingenuity and dogged determination he had been given command of the Relentless in his 3rd year aboard, and had gone about filling out his crew with the best men and women he could find. Some he had known from the academy, and others were new recruits from all manner and walks of life. He was proud of them, so it saddened him to know that although his next promotion would move him on to supposedly bigger and better things he would have to leave the majority of them behind. It was a big galaxy after all, and there was much he could accomplish elsewhere. Still...
"Sir?" The question snapped the captain out of his reverie.
"Yes?"
"What are we going to do about that?"
That happened to be an Imperial Star Destroyer that had jumped in system not all that long ago, with a captain that seemed to be similar to himself. Communications seemed to confirm this. And that the two captains and ships were similar, but far from being identical. It was clear though that the Relentless ran a much smaller crew, than this new one did, and that the Relentless did not have the same level of scanning technology either. And that fact was giving the captain fits. To his credit he made good use of what was available to him, but that he was still at the overall disadvantage. However it did seem that the Relentless had a better shielding system around it's core, but even that was uncertain. However, it was clear from the scarring on the hull of the Relentless that it had seen considerably darker times, but maybe that was simply because the captain was too proud to hide his wounds.
"Leave it be for now. Continue plotting a course to take us to any of our potential destinations. It doesn't seem to want to do us any harm, or particularily stand in our way, although it does seem to at least want to exert some influence."
"Aye, sir. What if their captain decides to..."
"To do what? Communications about our destinations haven't given us anything to work with. They're not going to simply blow us out of space for trying to run our course. They'll talk long before they'll fight about it. We're on the same side above all else."
"How do you kn--?" Then the ensign's eyes widened with sudden understanding "Captain, you want to fight alongside her don't you?"
The captain sighed. Yes, that was indeed the truth of the matter. The technical readouts of the Destroyers and profiles that he availabe about the personnel of each ship seemed to indicate that in combination that the Destroyers would form a verypowerful team. A lot was still uncertain, but it was the crux of the matter. They did know that while both ships flew under the colours of the Empire, that they were in different branches. Ultimately though, they served the same Emperor. Unfortunately with the Relentless due Coreward in the next four months, there was precious little time to explore the possibilites. Why float away from something so rare in the galaxy?
"Yes, ensign. I would like to very much," he said wistfully. Then his voice took on an edge, "Continue setting those courses, and ensure that everything is in readiness. Make sure all the systems pass their checks so that we can launch into hyperspace on schedule. This jump has been put off long enough."
"But, sir, I don't --"
"And, ensign, if anything occurs that changes my mind, we'll deal with it as it comes, and not before. Understood?"
"Aye, sir."
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Centred and Focused
Being home for an extended period of time does have some benefits, especially when that time is quiet and free to be spent as one sees fit. The healthy supply of food doesn't hurt either.
I find my soul is rather tranquil here at home, without the hustle and buslte and distraction of a dormitory. It's very...Jedi like for want of a cooler term. I find myself able to focus on music and reading without my emotions getting the better of me. A few songs and things till hit home, but they don't throw me as badly as they could. to be driven by wanting to play my music well instead of trying to take out my frustrations or anything like that.
I'm not troubled by the things that may or may not be, or the fact that the road of life is openingup to grand new vistas. these do not faze me. they will be dealt with at the appropriate time and not before.
My musical selection has been very mellow as of late, shifting away from the aggresive thrash and melodic death metal that propelled me through the semester onto power ballads (of varying quality) and lighter fare, grasciously provided to me on the CD 'Rod's Radical Rhythms', and even the crooning of Roy Orbison. Yes, this a place of peace. Even when I play my own aggressive fare it is with a cool detachment, and attention to detail that has been lacking as of late.
Of course " life is a map and is quite confusing" , but everyone's life is like that, and mine is no different. I hope the serenity and rest I'm finding here will help me with the coming semester.
May the Peace that surpasses all understanding
Be with you all
I find my soul is rather tranquil here at home, without the hustle and buslte and distraction of a dormitory. It's very...Jedi like for want of a cooler term. I find myself able to focus on music and reading without my emotions getting the better of me. A few songs and things till hit home, but they don't throw me as badly as they could. to be driven by wanting to play my music well instead of trying to take out my frustrations or anything like that.
I'm not troubled by the things that may or may not be, or the fact that the road of life is openingup to grand new vistas. these do not faze me. they will be dealt with at the appropriate time and not before.
My musical selection has been very mellow as of late, shifting away from the aggresive thrash and melodic death metal that propelled me through the semester onto power ballads (of varying quality) and lighter fare, grasciously provided to me on the CD 'Rod's Radical Rhythms', and even the crooning of Roy Orbison. Yes, this a place of peace. Even when I play my own aggressive fare it is with a cool detachment, and attention to detail that has been lacking as of late.
Of course " life is a map and is quite confusing" , but everyone's life is like that, and mine is no different. I hope the serenity and rest I'm finding here will help me with the coming semester.
May the Peace that surpasses all understanding
Be with you all
Saturday, December 23, 2006
What I've Learned over the Last Week
1. When you see something that looks suspisciouly like the Christmas List you sent to your family, DO NOT GO IN FOR A CLOSER LOOK! it is your Chirtmas list, and will have things checked off. Way to ruin the gift exchange part of Christmas for myself...unless the list is lying...at least somewhat. Come on vacation property in Hawaii!
2. I will not just go away in a game of Wii Tennis. Ask Joel. He may have won the match 3-1 but he earned everyone of those wins. Also, in Wii Bowling, 4 strikes in a row will orchestrate you a come back on your friend who previously scord 3 strikes in a row. boo ya! Addendum: My Wii character is stoked beyond all reason, all the time. He must being getting some...high scores. muhahaha
3. In the Oilman board game, do not push too hard. it will cost you oil in Greenland!
4. An hour of recording will earn you approximately 5 minutes of useful material. And recording tracks underneath each other is much harder than you think it would be.
6. (Five is dead to me). When travelling; if the truck shimmies twice, you should maybe back off the throttle. Also, choose your travelling partner well. It can make a bad situation worse, or can make a bad situation a pretty cool adventure.
7. The 80s aren't coming back. The Transformers will look different. Monter Trucks will be faster. He-Man is not as cool as you remember. But 80s metal will always reign supreme (apparently).
11. (8,9 and 10 are having issues and fistfights). when i get home, i graze like a cow. Mooo! hooray for food with nutrients!
2. I will not just go away in a game of Wii Tennis. Ask Joel. He may have won the match 3-1 but he earned everyone of those wins. Also, in Wii Bowling, 4 strikes in a row will orchestrate you a come back on your friend who previously scord 3 strikes in a row. boo ya! Addendum: My Wii character is stoked beyond all reason, all the time. He must being getting some...high scores. muhahaha
3. In the Oilman board game, do not push too hard. it will cost you oil in Greenland!
4. An hour of recording will earn you approximately 5 minutes of useful material. And recording tracks underneath each other is much harder than you think it would be.
6. (Five is dead to me). When travelling; if the truck shimmies twice, you should maybe back off the throttle. Also, choose your travelling partner well. It can make a bad situation worse, or can make a bad situation a pretty cool adventure.
7. The 80s aren't coming back. The Transformers will look different. Monter Trucks will be faster. He-Man is not as cool as you remember. But 80s metal will always reign supreme (apparently).
11. (8,9 and 10 are having issues and fistfights). when i get home, i graze like a cow. Mooo! hooray for food with nutrients!
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
A Good Biting Track is What It's Built For
Random Trackside Commentator (RTC): So, Rod, you've done a lot of work on the truck since last we saw you can you tell us a little bit about what you've done to it?
Rod: Well, we've got one of the biggest motors out here, but we've had a few stability issues with the truck which was effecting traction, and really screwing around with us the last few times we'd been out with it. We're hoping to find a little more bite with it once we get it up on two-wheels.
RTC: You talk about balance, how important has it been for you to find it, and put that out on the track.
Rod: It's been huge. Like I say, very few guys can run with the motor that we've got in here, so for me balance has been everything.
RTC: What do you think about the track in particular?
Rod: This is a great track, a lot more consistent than the last few we've tried to pull on, and it seems like we're getting a lot of traction when we put power to the wheels, so hopefully it'll work out. The last few tracks we've been on have been very hit-or-miss, this one seems like one where we can finally put the motor to work and blow away the competition. we had a lot of time to see how things can work, so it looks promising.
RTC: There seems to be a lot of guys eager to get out there and put you away, what do you think about that?
Rod: I guess that just means I'm the one with the target on my back, which is a compliment to the crew that helped me put this thing together. They're still going to have to try and beat me though, because I'm not going to roll over for just anybody on this one.
RTC: You seem confident, even though a lot of people say you're taking the wrong lane and angle down the course.
Rod: Well, I just have to have confidence in the motor and everything else right now. We've done a lot of work since we first came out of CCI and in the last few years we've done and learned alot, so hopefully we can make use of all that and get a straight run for the distance even if people think we're going about it wrong. The truck has changed, and the driver's learned a lot since we got here to CUCA, so we're just hoping to make one last clean pass to the finish line here. Thanks to everyone who's been supporting us. See you at the finish line.
Rod: Well, we've got one of the biggest motors out here, but we've had a few stability issues with the truck which was effecting traction, and really screwing around with us the last few times we'd been out with it. We're hoping to find a little more bite with it once we get it up on two-wheels.
RTC: You talk about balance, how important has it been for you to find it, and put that out on the track.
Rod: It's been huge. Like I say, very few guys can run with the motor that we've got in here, so for me balance has been everything.
RTC: What do you think about the track in particular?
Rod: This is a great track, a lot more consistent than the last few we've tried to pull on, and it seems like we're getting a lot of traction when we put power to the wheels, so hopefully it'll work out. The last few tracks we've been on have been very hit-or-miss, this one seems like one where we can finally put the motor to work and blow away the competition. we had a lot of time to see how things can work, so it looks promising.
RTC: There seems to be a lot of guys eager to get out there and put you away, what do you think about that?
Rod: I guess that just means I'm the one with the target on my back, which is a compliment to the crew that helped me put this thing together. They're still going to have to try and beat me though, because I'm not going to roll over for just anybody on this one.
RTC: You seem confident, even though a lot of people say you're taking the wrong lane and angle down the course.
Rod: Well, I just have to have confidence in the motor and everything else right now. We've done a lot of work since we first came out of CCI and in the last few years we've done and learned alot, so hopefully we can make use of all that and get a straight run for the distance even if people think we're going about it wrong. The truck has changed, and the driver's learned a lot since we got here to CUCA, so we're just hoping to make one last clean pass to the finish line here. Thanks to everyone who's been supporting us. See you at the finish line.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Growing On Like Mold and Massive Amounts of Confusion
The Growing of Mold
Alright, I've owned the album Sacrament by Lamb of God since...July? I bought it shortly after I saw them live in Toon Town. And you know what it did nothing for me. Zip. Zero. Nada. There was nothing there for me. I didn't want to get rid of it but I had it relegated basically to the backburner of my collection, and I expected it to collect dust for the foreseeable future. I didn't hate it, I just didn't like it in that special way that new albums typically take with me. In my mind bands like Dark Age and Children of Bodom were doing it faster and cleaner and more to my liking.
Time went on. I tried giving it the pity spins in my CD player just for kicks, but still nothing. I knew intellectually that this was an album I should like: it had the makings of a 'Rod' album: the fast guitars, the ferocious lyrics, the intense mid-pitch screams, but still nothing. I was perturbed. I had invested 20 bucks on this CD, I wanted my return dammit!
So a couple days ago Eric and I were in 'Lets watch DVDs that talk about bands and their lives/recording process' mode so we ended up watching the Lamb of God one, because in my infinite wisdom I bought the collector's edition. And it was like listening to it with new ears. I heard the guitar work that I knew was there. I felt the emotion of the lyrics and the vocals, and the pounding of the drums. It was ridiculous. Now, I actually like the album. In short, sometimes things grow on you, and it's awesome.
Massive Amounts of Confusion
Let's turn things over to the boys at Mosaic Stadium at Taylor Field, Glen Sui...err Eric Moffett and Rod Parker
Moffett: What the HELL is going on down there? The Riders defence looks...stunned
Parker: Indeed they do. They seem to be holding their own despite the fact that they HAVE NO IDEA what is going on.
Moffett: It doesn't hurt that the opposition have Randy Moss playing. And by playing I mean dropping balls all over the damn field. Those receivers are morons, I mean what do they get paid for?
Parker: Well that's good new for the Riders D because they're coverage well good, has been far from stellar. But at least it's been more solid that the Riders offence.
Moffett: I know. The Riders O has a bunch of retards out there. They had one good play on 3rd and 15, but they struggled mightily after that, and ended up getting rejected in the red zone. I don't know why they pay those receivers? Like come on boys, come on. Not even a field goal. That whole team should be cut.
Parker: They really iso'ed in on a receiver early on and it hurt production in what was looking to be a promising 4th quarter.
Moffett: This seems to be a problem with the Riders in general: Abandoning the running game in the fourth, and trying to take to the air which never turns out for them. I don't even know why the come out in the 4th quarter. My grandma plays better 4th quarter ball than these pussies.
Parker: Well there's still 7 minutes left in the 4th. Any suggesstions for this struggling Riders team?
Moffett: Yes. Don't drop the ball! Keep the defence in a position to make a huge play, go for the forced fumble or the interception and take that to the house. And for the love all things holy, don't committ turnovers, and run the ball! And keep it out of the hands of the morons.
Alright, I've owned the album Sacrament by Lamb of God since...July? I bought it shortly after I saw them live in Toon Town. And you know what it did nothing for me. Zip. Zero. Nada. There was nothing there for me. I didn't want to get rid of it but I had it relegated basically to the backburner of my collection, and I expected it to collect dust for the foreseeable future. I didn't hate it, I just didn't like it in that special way that new albums typically take with me. In my mind bands like Dark Age and Children of Bodom were doing it faster and cleaner and more to my liking.
Time went on. I tried giving it the pity spins in my CD player just for kicks, but still nothing. I knew intellectually that this was an album I should like: it had the makings of a 'Rod' album: the fast guitars, the ferocious lyrics, the intense mid-pitch screams, but still nothing. I was perturbed. I had invested 20 bucks on this CD, I wanted my return dammit!
So a couple days ago Eric and I were in 'Lets watch DVDs that talk about bands and their lives/recording process' mode so we ended up watching the Lamb of God one, because in my infinite wisdom I bought the collector's edition. And it was like listening to it with new ears. I heard the guitar work that I knew was there. I felt the emotion of the lyrics and the vocals, and the pounding of the drums. It was ridiculous. Now, I actually like the album. In short, sometimes things grow on you, and it's awesome.
Massive Amounts of Confusion
Let's turn things over to the boys at Mosaic Stadium at Taylor Field, Glen Sui...err Eric Moffett and Rod Parker
Moffett: What the HELL is going on down there? The Riders defence looks...stunned
Parker: Indeed they do. They seem to be holding their own despite the fact that they HAVE NO IDEA what is going on.
Moffett: It doesn't hurt that the opposition have Randy Moss playing. And by playing I mean dropping balls all over the damn field. Those receivers are morons, I mean what do they get paid for?
Parker: Well that's good new for the Riders D because they're coverage well good, has been far from stellar. But at least it's been more solid that the Riders offence.
Moffett: I know. The Riders O has a bunch of retards out there. They had one good play on 3rd and 15, but they struggled mightily after that, and ended up getting rejected in the red zone. I don't know why they pay those receivers? Like come on boys, come on. Not even a field goal. That whole team should be cut.
Parker: They really iso'ed in on a receiver early on and it hurt production in what was looking to be a promising 4th quarter.
Moffett: This seems to be a problem with the Riders in general: Abandoning the running game in the fourth, and trying to take to the air which never turns out for them. I don't even know why the come out in the 4th quarter. My grandma plays better 4th quarter ball than these pussies.
Parker: Well there's still 7 minutes left in the 4th. Any suggesstions for this struggling Riders team?
Moffett: Yes. Don't drop the ball! Keep the defence in a position to make a huge play, go for the forced fumble or the interception and take that to the house. And for the love all things holy, don't committ turnovers, and run the ball! And keep it out of the hands of the morons.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Stealing this from Lauren
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...
OPENING CREDITS: Heaven Can Wait - Gamma Ray
WAKING UP: Starlight Kingdom - Battlelore
FIRST DAY AT SCHOOL: Under the Ice - Blind Guardian
FALLING IN LOVE: The Village of Dwarves - Rhapsody (my iTunes is on a power-metal kick)
FIGHT SONG: Valley of the Damned - DragonForce
BREAKING UP: A Tout Le Monde (Live) - Megadeth
FORMAL: The God That Failed - Metallica
FINAL BATTLE: Elysian Fields - Megadeth
DEATH SCENE: Killed by Death - Motorhead (How hilarious and appropriate)
FUNERAL: Time What is Time - Blind Guardian
ENDING CREDITS: Touch Like an Angel of Death - Children of Bodom
Apparently this is the soundtrack to some strange mystical medieval horror flick. I should get to work on that.
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...
OPENING CREDITS: Heaven Can Wait - Gamma Ray
WAKING UP: Starlight Kingdom - Battlelore
FIRST DAY AT SCHOOL: Under the Ice - Blind Guardian
FALLING IN LOVE: The Village of Dwarves - Rhapsody (my iTunes is on a power-metal kick)
FIGHT SONG: Valley of the Damned - DragonForce
BREAKING UP: A Tout Le Monde (Live) - Megadeth
FORMAL: The God That Failed - Metallica
FINAL BATTLE: Elysian Fields - Megadeth
DEATH SCENE: Killed by Death - Motorhead (How hilarious and appropriate)
FUNERAL: Time What is Time - Blind Guardian
ENDING CREDITS: Touch Like an Angel of Death - Children of Bodom
Apparently this is the soundtrack to some strange mystical medieval horror flick. I should get to work on that.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
My Train of Thought has Become a Wreck
Please, excuse this post as it promises to be random, potentially mean, and inarticulate to the max.
I've been at work for 2.5 hours and I've changed CDs more than 5 times. That just doesn't happen to me.
What I am searching for? A voice of understanding? I don't know. I can't it in my music for some reason.
I don't want to be angry I'm tired of it. I'm tired of being jealous. I'm tired of hating myself because of my weaknessess. This is pathetic. Everyone has weaknesses, don't they? So, why do mine seem to be so particularily destructive and damaging? Am I not worthy of what I'm after? This is dumb. Everything is futile!
I Hate your contention
I hate your violation
I hate your corruption
I hate your life destruction
I will resist ENDLESSLY!
~ Transgression - Fear Factory
Why is it people seem to be most capable of destroying what they're after? Is it human nature to lose everything we hold dear through our own doings? Is that the fate of us, do be undone by our desires, or our needs?
You should be a saviour
Once on earth to bleed for the weak
Try Modern behaviour
For a world that cannot seek
This fallen belief I know
Has no prospect
Will never achieve to grow
If we carry on hiding
What is deep inside of us
~ We Who Suffer - Dark Age
It's just frustrating because I know, know for a fact that I'm better than this, that I'm better than what comes through. But who will be there to see me through my follies and weaknessess and darkness. Who will be there to hold me when it all gets to be too much? Do I even dare show that to anyone? Or will it be my guitar that pays for my frustrations again?
Caged inside
I cannot seem to end the battles
Breaking down, I worship the insane
~ Oscillation Point - Scar Symmetry
Is there no other road, then the way of pain? Of course if success comes my way the road was worth, but dammit I've been here before, and I feel like screaming because I am not dreaming.
I cannot get out of here anymore
Cause none of my keys fit the door
There's fear and anger
Hate and love
I must confess
It's out of hand
If there's anyone in
It soon will be over
We'll burn out
Our soul's aflamed
And we're on our own now
Give up your cruel invasion
Your insane I'll show you
~ Another Stanger Me - Blind Guardian
It's hard. This game we call life. This has gotten all out of hand. I wish I could rewind and see the moment where all this came to be. Hopefully if the sowing is sweet, but germanation and growth is bitter then the reaping will still be sweet. If not...gah!
This year wasn't supposed to be like this! It just wasn't! It was supposed to be mop-up duty, simple tricks and fun. How do I do this to myself?
Do not turn your face towards me
Confronting me with my lonliness
You are in a forest unknown
The secret orchard
And your voice is vast and achromatic
But still so precious
~ Black Rose Immortal - Opeth
I've been at work for 2.5 hours and I've changed CDs more than 5 times. That just doesn't happen to me.
What I am searching for? A voice of understanding? I don't know. I can't it in my music for some reason.
I don't want to be angry I'm tired of it. I'm tired of being jealous. I'm tired of hating myself because of my weaknessess. This is pathetic. Everyone has weaknesses, don't they? So, why do mine seem to be so particularily destructive and damaging? Am I not worthy of what I'm after? This is dumb. Everything is futile!
I Hate your contention
I hate your violation
I hate your corruption
I hate your life destruction
I will resist ENDLESSLY!
~ Transgression - Fear Factory
Why is it people seem to be most capable of destroying what they're after? Is it human nature to lose everything we hold dear through our own doings? Is that the fate of us, do be undone by our desires, or our needs?
You should be a saviour
Once on earth to bleed for the weak
Try Modern behaviour
For a world that cannot seek
This fallen belief I know
Has no prospect
Will never achieve to grow
If we carry on hiding
What is deep inside of us
~ We Who Suffer - Dark Age
It's just frustrating because I know, know for a fact that I'm better than this, that I'm better than what comes through. But who will be there to see me through my follies and weaknessess and darkness. Who will be there to hold me when it all gets to be too much? Do I even dare show that to anyone? Or will it be my guitar that pays for my frustrations again?
Caged inside
I cannot seem to end the battles
Breaking down, I worship the insane
~ Oscillation Point - Scar Symmetry
Is there no other road, then the way of pain? Of course if success comes my way the road was worth, but dammit I've been here before, and I feel like screaming because I am not dreaming.
I cannot get out of here anymore
Cause none of my keys fit the door
There's fear and anger
Hate and love
I must confess
It's out of hand
If there's anyone in
It soon will be over
We'll burn out
Our soul's aflamed
And we're on our own now
Give up your cruel invasion
Your insane I'll show you
~ Another Stanger Me - Blind Guardian
It's hard. This game we call life. This has gotten all out of hand. I wish I could rewind and see the moment where all this came to be. Hopefully if the sowing is sweet, but germanation and growth is bitter then the reaping will still be sweet. If not...gah!
This year wasn't supposed to be like this! It just wasn't! It was supposed to be mop-up duty, simple tricks and fun. How do I do this to myself?
Do not turn your face towards me
Confronting me with my lonliness
You are in a forest unknown
The secret orchard
And your voice is vast and achromatic
But still so precious
~ Black Rose Immortal - Opeth
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